Friday, 4 April 2014

And Then There Was One.


Words are failing me and tears obscuring my vision. This post is the hardest I've ever had to write.

On Wednesday 26th of March 2014, Bunny Eskdale fell asleep forever. Yes, we've lost Bunny. Not just a rabbit but my first child and a gigantic part of my heart and life. This little hopping fluff ball had come even more into himself, developing a real character and personality over the last year especially and his dog like nature has left such an un-fillable hole in our house.

We have no idea what took my little man from me although he has always had a sensitive stomach and I gather that is what must of been the cause, though at his last vet check up recently he was perfect. So now I dunno what to say to you...I had written a whole paragraph of exactly what happened but to be honest I don't want to remember the negativity but the sheer joy and love I received from my original B-man.



Cheeky Bunny always could be found doing whatever it is that he shouldn't be! We made a cardboard guard to fit around our TV stand as he was obsessed with sitting amoung the wires, a bag of shopping or a bag of rubbish sat by the door waiting to be taken out would be prime target for him to jump on and he would always be able to find and open any bag of food or treats (that he knew he wasn't allowed much of) no matter how well hidden.



From homemade cardboard castles to shoeboxes, and special rabbit tunnels and houses, he loved to play peek-a-boo. Hopping in and out, on top of and through then taking his veg inside to settle down and munch away.


My photogenic boy was ever so inquisitive of the camera though! All of my pets grow up with a lens in their face (in the nicest way possible) and so obviously love having their photo taken. When trying to get a nice photo of Bunny you had to be fast! He'd run toward the camera and stick his nose into the lens giving eskimo kisses just as he would with me. Just like this online article says, my guy was definitely a one to present himself for grooming and highly enjoyed me rubbing his nose with my own nose. That's one of the things I'll miss the most.



Seeing as I work evenings and therefor blog at night time Bunny became my little helper and company after Baker had gone to bed. We'd sit in the kitchen and he'd jump up on his chair, sneak onto the table and pop his little head over my laptop screen to remind me he was there. He was the only reason I'd look away from the screen. We took little breaks to play with his many little puzzle toys which he always managed to crack so quickly...he was a very clever little bun after all...knowing his name, coming to a mark you pointed at and even reaching up for a kiss when asked for one.


On April 1st 2014 it marked 1 year from the loss of his best friend Nike, who at not even a year old passed from a heart attack in the middle of the night. As heartbreaking as it is that I have to go through this again I hope that whatever happens after death my two babies are back together, in no pain and hopping around together.

I'm sorry if it was anything I did wrong Bunny, I did my best, bought you better than you needed and always made sure you and Baker's bowls and toy boxes were full before mine. Baker has been looking for you, sniffing at your bedroom door, lying by it and crying which is strange seeing as he was frightened of you! I missed you sitting on my feet as I cooked dinner today and avoid sitting on the sofa to watch TV as it doesn't feel the same without you jumping up to snuggle in too. Love you Bunny B <3


Other posts you will find my one and only Bun-Pup in can be found by clicking here.


And now there is one. 

24 comments:

  1. Aw, how sad, I'm so sorry. Losing pets is always such a horrible experience.
    Hope you're okay <3
    L x
    Whimsical-Nothings

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    1. Time heals all matters. He's a big miss but I'm dealing well.
      Thank you <3

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  2. Ah darl this blog is fab but so sad it must have been hard for you to write but just look at all he did which shows in the photos he loved you and that showed in how relaxed and content he was in your company :) he'll be having fun now with little Nike :) Bless them both xxxxx<3<3 sending you more big ((((HUGS ))))

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss<3 it's so hard. Pets become part of the family. It looks like he had a very happy life!! Hugs to you.

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    1. Thank you <3
      They really are family, no matter how small :)

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  4. Aww I'm sorry for your loss, he seemed like a very lovely bunny and seeing pictures of his little face always made me smile. Hope you're as fine as you can be :) Big hugs xxx

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  5. Oh Danielle, there is nothing I can say to make you feel any better - but you are such a good Bunny mummy he was a very lucky boy. If you ever need to talk you know where I am

    RIP Bunny xo

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    1. That means alot Kayleigh - thank you. As are you to Karl <3

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  6. I haven't actually been able to read this because I know it'll make me upset .. it's so horrible losing a pet :( We had a gorgeous ginger tom called Martin who was in our family for years and years, he was the best, when I was a teenager I told him all my secrets .. I was devastated when he left us :(

    Hope you're OK hun, it'll get easier as time goes on and just remember what a fantastic home you gave him and how happy he was x

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    1. Oh bless you, I tried to keep it as happy as possible :) I want to remember how he made me feel, not how losing him made me feel. <3
      Thank you x

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss :( it's so hard to lose a pet, and I can tell just from the photos that he was incredibly loving little guy. I'm sure he is with Nike now and they are running through green fields together, free of pain and so happy!

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    1. He was fab! Such an amazing character :)
      Thank you <3

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  8. +JMJ+

    I'm sorry to hear that you've lost him. This post is a lovely tribute.

    I must say that the article you linked surprised me a little. The last time I did research on rabbits as pets, I found an article that said they don't really like being sociable with people and don't put up with as much petting as a dog or a cat would. It's nice to know that that isn't actually the case! It's also interesting that rabbits aren't as hierarchical as dogs: that they will still obey their owners as long as they get their grooming. What a nice balance! =)

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    1. Thank you <3

      They really are a perfect pet, especially for those who would like a dog but can't have one. As long as they are neutered and given lots of attention they are very loving indeed :)

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  9. I am still heartbroken for you, Danielle :(. Losing a pet is just one of the worst things ever. It's even worse when people just don't understand how much it hurts and you find yourself having to explain why you're hurting so much. Bunny clearly had a perfect life with you, it's just such a shame that it was such a short one :( xxx

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    1. Thanks Leona. Having this blog and therefore knowing so many wonderful animal lovers has made this alot easier. Cleaning his room out and packing his toys away was the hardest thing. Its strange how a big a hole such a little guy has left. x

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  10. I'm so sorry for your loss. This is so sad.

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  11. I've actually found myself on the verge of tears reading this, I'd be heart broken if something happened to my cat. I hope you're ok lovely, its so evident that you really loved bunny. That picture of him popping his over the laptop screen is adorable!
    Kloe xx
    skullsnkisses.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Oh bless your heart! It's awful. I know people who have lost children and I really don't know how people get through it because this sucks. It's amazing to see so many of you show so much support though as apposed to people telling me 'its only a rabbit'.
      That picture breaks my heart! He was so beautiful. <3
      xo

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  12. I can't believe I missed this post. I cried reading it. Sorry again for your loss Danielle. I thought that maybe I shouldn't comment because I don't want to bring sadness to your life but Bunny deserves remembrance. So nice that you took such good care of him. I wish many other animals had the kind of care you provide to your babies. Your apology to him touched me the most. Even after all we do for the ones we love, we often think it is not enough. I'm sure everything you did was enough, but it further shows the strength of your love for him. You were both blessed with each other.

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    1. Wow, what a comment Kendwy! I can't thank you enough because this means more than you could imagine. I'm missing him terribly but having an outlet and people who understand me to talk to has made all the difference. <3
      xo

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